Its a wretched world. And it stirs up the devil in me. They said the devil’s locked up. So this is just me.
Ive been trying to be good, to become like the people with real hidayah. Not working. The best i will ever be is average muslim.
Ive been trying to turn around. to look away. forget. not working.
I feel wretched and miserable and angry. Ive been trying to hold it in. Not working.
Nothing’s working. Muslim women and children are being murdered in Palestine. People are starving to death in Africa. The people of Swat have gone back to find their homes have turned to rubble. And all i can think of. is myself.
I want to pull my hair. I have none.
The world is a wretched place. Nothing works. Wake up. Dont hope. Stop. Shush. Youre still not getting it. Stop. Please. Stop. Just stop.