My caravan…

Come, and come yet again.
Ours is not a caravan of despair

(Rumi)

I want to have cocktails, those sky blue colored ones with vodka in em. And those chilled hawaiin type drinks, and that spiked ice tea and what not. Yes sir, i want that shit! Its a strange life we’re living. Cant do much about it. Im a wildchild at heart, but ive mellowed down and nothing makes sense anymore. Anyways.

This friend of mine got caught today when he brought this chick over to his place. Fucked up. Hes talking some deep shit right. It makes me think. What if mom finds out?! But im careful, always. God, im sure will forgive

But yeah, its a strange life we’re living. Im not trying to make excuses, but everytime i try to fix myself it goes all wrong. So no more of that shit. I need to stick to the life i know, everything else is just not for me. If God ever wants me to change, im sure hell show me the way. Ive been told to listen to the Quran’s translation. I will. After im done with somethings i need to do

Is he with you???

God is with me. Is he with you?

So i have just one course to take this semester. Which means i get loads of time to chill. Im a dog at heart, ive been working my ass off non-stop. And going easy on the accelerator feels kinda weird. But it means more time to practice my chords, more time to watch movies and maybe read a book or two. And more time to invest into getting laid! So yeah, id say this is a pretty good decision ive taken here

Firehouse is bloody fuckin’ amazing…

Well I really admire your political views
You personal philosophy reflects your high I.Q.
And I am impressed by the way you think everything through
Baby you’re so smart I know that I could really learn a lot from you

Well you’ve got quite a brain but I’ve got half a mind
To show you what I want to do to you
With all respect your intellect takes a back seat this time
It’s the physical attraction that turns me on

There’s just somethin’ ’bout you body
That makes me want you all the time
Oo I want your body but all I get from you is
A piece of your mind (there’s just somethin’ ’bout your body)

(Courtesy: Firehouse ‘Somethin’ bout your body’)

The ongoings…

I had the Mr.Burger Roast beef burger today. Pretty good, not great though…

So i’ve been listening to this song all week and i finally found out who it is! This is one song you cant miss, good crazy bryan adams-ish rock…

Woke up with a heavy head
And I thought about leavin’ town
I could have died if I wanted to-
Slipped over the edge and drowned
But, oh no baby, I won’t give up so easy
Too many tire tracks in the sands of time
Too many love affairs that stop on a dime
I think it’s time to make some changes ’round here
Yeah, I’m gonna tear it up
gonna trash it up
I’m gonna round it up
gonna shake it up
Oh, no, baby, I will not lie down
I’m brave enough to be crazy
I’m strong enough to be weak
I see all these heroes with feet of clay
Whose mighty ships have sprung a leak
And I want you to tell me darlin’
Just what do you believe in now?
Well, c’mon over here baby
You ’bout to gimme a heart attack
I wanna wrap my lovin’ arms
Around the small of your back
Yeah, and I’m gonna pull you, pull you, pull you
Pull you right up close to me
Yeah we’re gonna tear it up
we gonna trash it up
gonna round it up
gonna shake it up
Oh, no no no, I will not lie down

(Courtesy: Don Henley ‘I Will No Got Quietly ‘)

Details on the hunt

So she’s got two kids. Both less then 10 years of age, a son and a daughter. One cheating husband to go with it. The husband happens to be a stock broker who she claims beats her up every once in a while! I think the poor woman deserves some happiness, no?! Of course she does, and this totally justifies everything! I mean if the husband’s cheating, the wife should cheat right back! That, of course, is where i come in! Hoorrraaaa!!! Of course if shes bullshitting, that undoes all the logic put forward! But then, how am i supposed to know any better!

Here comes the Furor
Kick the dust, wipe the crime from the main street
Await the coming of the lord
Hangin’ round with them low down and dirty
Bringing order from the boss
What’s the furor ’bout it all
Leave you pantin’, bust your balls
Kicked around, messed about, get your hands dirty
On the killin’ floor

I’m your furor
I’m your furor, baby

Friend of mine, cross the line to a new state
I can shake the law
Find a mine, gonna build me a new place
No knockin’ door to door

I’m your furor
I’m your furor, baby
What’s your furor
I’m your furor

(Courtesy: ACDC ‘The Furor’)

Bringin’ it back..

Who knew bahadurabad was this great a poondi point! And its so close to my place, how convenient!! ;) Now the last time i got the oppurtunity to get it on with a married woman, i thought what if i do this and when i get married my wife cheats on me! Whoa, thatd be fucked up, no? Yes, i am an ardent believer in Karma, or should it be ‘of’ Karma?? However, im not one to repeat mistakes either, so this time around im gonna seize the oppurtunities given to me, hopefully!! haha

In other news, this is a mid-booze session post. We’re trying out this new drink called Indus, which is kinda like a local equivalent of Smirnoff Ice! Yes, i like to experiment! And its good, not great, but good! So before my words start to be gramatically incorrect, im going to post this post. Because after all, all posts are meant to be posted! If they were not, then why the fuck would Mr.WordPress call them posts! Haina?

P.S I dont have the sort of control over the mouse that is needed to copy paste lyrics into this post, the way i usually do…

But the song of the minute is Winds of change by the Scorpions! Only cause its on right now

Fair trade

Us humans, we’re a result of our surroundings. Part of what we are is innate, we born with certain characterisitics that is,  the rest of it comes from experience, the people around us, the things we see, the situations we face. All these things define us and make us who we are.

What doesnt kill you, can only make you stronger they say. That rings true i believe, the more difficult life gets, the more you learn to take. People who are weak, are generally weak because theyve had an easy life. Strength and faith comes from experience. Those who are sheltered and protected never learn to fend for themselves. So when God puts us to the test, in return for our struggles he gives us strength, and greater tolerance and knowledge.

God likes to be ironic i guess, the way he works its quite evident.

I took a course in Hallelujah
I went to night school for de blues
I took some stuff they said would cool ya…hea ha
But nothing seemed to light my fuse

But that’s all in the past
Like a check that’s in the mail
She was a tall whiskey glass
I was an old hound dog
That just loved to chase his tail

Until I met a Blind Man
Who taught me how to see…yeah
A Blind Man
Who could change night into day
And if a I can
I’m gonna make you come with me

(Courtesy: Aerosmith ‘Blind Man’)

Replica

All too often i feel like i dont belong, and im constantly changing such that i look back and i dont recognize myself. There have been so many transitions of me that ive been forced into.

I was made to listen to listen to this number by Sonata arctica, which is one of those progressive metal bands. This is one of their rock numbers, beyond brilliant. And the lyrics ring so true, this is one track you cant miss.

 I’m home again, I won the war, and now I am behind your door.
I tried so hard to obey the law, and see the meaning of this all.
Remember me? Before the war.
I’m the man who lived next door.
Long ago…

As you can see, when you look at me, I’m pieces of what I used to be.
It’s easier if you don’t see standing on my own two feet.
I’m taller when I sit here still, you ask are all my dreams fulfilled.
They made me heart of steal, the kind them bullets cannot see, yeah.

Nothing’s what it seems to be
I’m a replica, I’m a replica
Empty shell inside of me
I’m not myself, I’m a replica of me…

The light is green, my slate is clean, new life to fill the hole in me.
I had no name, last December, Christmas Eve I can’t remember.
I was in a constant pain, I saw your shadow in the rain.
I painted all your pigeons red, I wish I had stayed home instead.

Nothing’s what it seems to be
I’m a replica, I’m a replica
Empty shell inside of me
I’m not myself, I’m a replica of me…

Are you gonna leave me now, when it is all over
Are you gonna leave me, is my world now over…

Raising from the place I’ve been, and trying to keep my home base clean.
Now I’m here and won’t go back believe.

I fall asleep and dream a dream, I’m floating in the silent dream.
No-one place blame on me.
But nothing’s what it seems to be, yeah

(Courtesy: Sonata Arctica ‘Replica’)

Rise

Eddie Vedder is king!

Such is the way of the world
You can never know
Just where to put all your faith
And how will it grow

Gonna rise up
Burning back holes in dark memories
Gonna rise up
Turning mistakes into gold

Such is the passage of time
Too fast to fold
And suddenly swallowed by signs
Low and behold

Gonna rise up
Find my direction magnetically
Gonna rise up
Throw down my ace in the hole

(courtesy: Eddie Vedder ‘Rise’)

The words i speak, the thoughts that spin…

Beer drinkers have proven their affinity for the fluids. We drove all the way to fucking cantt station from our college today. God is great, Beer is proof of it! So in the summer heat it didnt stay too chill for too long. So we bought crushed ice from a cold spot and stuffed the cans in. Chilled beer was followed by sheesha. Dangerous conversations between the boys took place. Decisions were made. Lets hope men are men enough to stick to their word. In life, i felt again today, it is important to be with people that make you strong, who have faith in you.

I saw an ambulance today carrying what i think was a body with family sitting in the back with it. And i remembered when dad was sick. All those trips to the hospital, that decision i made, all those sleepless nights at the hospital, all those emergiencies when i thought he would leave us, all that running around. I was closest to abba. At home today my decisions carry weight because everyone knows that the decisions i make are what abba wouldve made had he been with us. I wish he was still with us. Even in his last days he was relaxed and free of strees. I pray for him. No one couldve kept mom as happy as he did. I wish to follow in my father’s footsteps.

Mom says that ill do well in life. Because ive fulfilled the duties of a good son bravely. I hope shes right

 

Keh do jo bhi, mann main ayay

Aisay na ho khamoshi main,

Sunnay wala hi kho jayay

(courtesy: Junaid Jamshed ‘Keh do jo bhi’)

The love of God

I’m glad to say that some of the friends ive made in my life have proven their worth to me. Im writing these words because i wish to share with as many people as possible the facts that have dawned upon me today.

Hold no grudge, feel no hatred for those who wrong you, because someday you might just turn into them yourself.

Believe in your creator, choose a companion who makes you strong, and fight to remain faithful together, because we have been made in pairs, one completes the other. Give selflessly, show your love for god by giving love to his creation. Be grateful for what you have, because there are millions who have so much lesser than you do. Stick with people who make you stronger, rather than those who make you feel otherwise. Expect no reward in this world, because this is not your true home. Love unconditionally, fight bravely and believe. Speak the truth, there is comfort in it. Do not lose hope, because god watches all of us.

I pray for my creator to give me strength, when he does i hope i use it for the greatest of things. I pray for a companion who can teach my children the word of god, and i pray for the well being of my friends, those who have stood by me and those who have chosen not to.

Yes, i drink and do many things that are wrong, but in time i will have the strength to correct myself. I am still a man of faith, because my creator has chosen me to be.

P.S: A humble request to all those who feel me, tell me that you do.